Monday, July 23, 2012

My heart is broken and I will never be the same

My baby Kayleigh just passed away. My heart hurts so bad it feels like it could explode. I know if you have never felt this kind of love for a pet you wouldn't understand. Kayleigh was my baby. She slept with me, she followed me around the house, she cried when she would see me packing a suitcase, and she never wanted me out of her sight.

Kayleigh's heart and little body had endured far than what everyone thought she could make it through on many occassions. She was a fighter. But even fighters get tired. She was struggling for every breath she took. I rushed her to the vet and they gave her some meds and oxygen. She was still struggling. The vet said she didn't think Kayleigh would make it through the night. I knew that Kayleigh would want to be at home in the comfort of our bed.

She never made it to the bed. As soon as we got home with her she looked up at me with her big brown eyes as she struggled for every breath. I leaned over and whispered in her ear that it was ok to stop fighting...mommy would be fine. She laid her little head over on me and took her last breath.










RIP my sweet baby girl. Mommy loves you.

29 comments:

Island Bandit said...

you poor thing. kayleigh truly had a great life thanks to you.

Vanessa said...

I am so sorry for your loss ~ I know that pain too well unfortunately. You can lean on me if you need to. Its a horrible horrible thing to go through. You gave her a wonderful life.

Tina @ The Bandit Girl said...

Oh my, my heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry for your loss and glad at the same time that she isn't suffering. Nothing compares to the love of a loyal loving dog. Praying for healing and peace for you.

sweet addy said...

This is heartbreaking. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Run, Chelle, Run! said...

I am so, so sorry to hear this hon. I will be thinking about you...Kayleigh was lucky to have such a loving momma!

Terrie said...

words can't express how much my heart is hurting for you right now. I am so sorry. Glad to know you gave her such a great life.

Colleen said...

I completely understand what you are going through, and my heart is breaking for you. The love of a pet is an amazing thing. I'm so very sorry for you loss.

vickyd said...

I'm so sorry for your loss - our pets are like children and the loss can be devastating. Sending you ((HUGS)) and prayers...

Amy said...

What a beautiful girl. I have three of my own and I know the companionship and love that fuzzies bring to us.

JRD said...

Oh Barbie, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I love my baby Madison just like that and I am dreading the day she passes on. I know my heart will be broken like yours. Sending you so much love and sympathy. Hugs.

CJ said...

I am so sorry. Words don't seem adequate. My heart just breaks for you. The way you said goodbye to her and told her she could go made me cry.

Mari said...

So sorry for your loss darling, I look forward to the day when I have a pet to love as much as you loved Kayleigh. Thinking of you x

Sarah said...

Oh Barbie, I am sobbing reading this ... my heart is broken for you. What a brave fighter she was. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. xx

Jazzing up Jackie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It's always difficult to get through the loss of a pet. Sending hugs and prayers your way.

Andrea said...

Oh my heart is broken for you!!! Praying for you!!!

Ronnie said...

I'm so sorry, again, sweetie. If you need to talk, e-mail me anytime. <3 Or text me. I'll send you my cell number.

Jacquie said...

So sorry for your loss.

momma2fi said...

My heart goes out to you today. I've had to put down three pets, and all three times I have felt more pain and loss that losing a human family member.It is a horrible thing to do and to go through. Wouldn't it be wonderful if they had a life span as long as ours? I don't know about you but I believe that we will see them again. I can't wait to have Hunter tickle my face with his whiskers, to see Misty to tilt her head just so, and Max to be his usual badass self. Now your dear Kaleigh is doing her thing, without being hampered by her health issues. Think of her this way.

adorkbl said...

I am so sorry!! I would be so devastated to lose my Sophie. ((giant hugs)) So sorry about your baby.

Beth said...

Barbie I am so very sorry for your loss. I have tears streaming down my face as I write this. I know your pain. I had to put my beautiful Ariel down 11/5/2007 and it still hurts. I held her in my arms and told her she was the best dog in the world. Your life is better for having had Kayleigh in it!

Lap Band Gal said...

I am so sorry sweetie. hang in there :(

Azmomo2 said...

So so sorry for you loss!

Theresa Foley said...

I am sorry for your loss, how sweet of you to bring her home to be with you 'til the end <3 I know how it feels, complete heartbreak. this brings tears to my eyes, what a loving momma to talk her thru it..... so sorry sweetie

trishajo said...

I am crying with you traci... I am so sorry......

Theresa aka Tessie Rose said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I believe that dogs are more evolved than humans...at least their souls are, they so love so unconditionally. You'll be in my thoughts.

speck said...

I'm sitting here with tear welling up.

Bless her heart.(and yours)

I'm sad for you.

Hugs roommate.

Sandra

Robyn's Nest said...

I am crying while reading this. I have lost a few babies and very few people really get how it hurts to your soul. They are the best part of us.

XBIGJIMX said...

my eyes begin to water at work as i expected they would as i read this. I am so sorry for your loss.
When I lost my Sammy years ago it was the same thing as i slowly watched him get slower and harder for him to do the day to day things. I would have to help him more. When he finally past I was a wreck. I wound up having him creamated and stread his ashes in his favorite forest walk spot. I kept a small amount of his ashes and cast them into a silver "bone" charm I wear on my wrist to this day.

Banded With Favor said...

Oh Barbie, just reading this now and crying with you....so sorry...hugs, hugs, hugs...