Wednesday, February 22, 2012

If you don't create change, change will create you

I started packing some of my things at work today so I don't have so much to pack at once on my last day (12 working days left!) As I packed I ran across things I have had for the entire 14 years I have been teaching. It made me reflect on how things have changed over the last 14 years.

When I first started teaching I loved my job. I loved my co-workers, I loved my kids....I loved me. I'm not sure exactly when things started to change but it was most likely the day Lucifer became my boss but at some point I no longer liked my job, rarely even spoke to co workers, viewed my students as a job, and certainly no longer liked the person I had become. I can certainly pinpoint my health declining and weight increasing to the time that the changes occurred.

I let change create me, instead of me creating change. I would be lying if I said I'm not a little bit scared about starting a new job. Will my new kids like me? Will my new co workers like me? Will I be a fabulous teacher again like I used to be?? I don't know the answers to these questions, but I am excited about the change.

This time I am creating the change, instead of letting the change create me.

6 comments:

Mari said...

I'm so sure that you never stopped being a great teacher and that you'll continue to be one. As you said, this time you're in charge of the change and that is a great first step! x

BP said...

What a great message! I think you are right, in general, about this. And it is all connected, isn't it? Really has me thinking!

MandaPanda said...

Great post! Changes that were happening in my old job pushed me into action as well and I'm so glad I took control of my life instead of just going with "whatever." New opportunities await you! How exciting!

Andrea said...

Good for you! I'm sure they will love you and you will be a fabulous teacher!

Laura Belle said...

I think you'll be great at the new job!!!

I had to quit 2 jobs just because of the way my bosses treated me. Then I was also so burned out because of how much they were pushing me that I didn't pick up a camera, professionally, for 3 years! 3 YEARS!!! And taking pictures is my passion, my life, what I paid $25,000 for! Stupid bosses.

Your kids will love you, your co-workers will adore you....no worries!!!

Melissa Wolf said...

Thank you for this post. This is an IMPORTANT one!! And one I needed to hear. You are so right. Glad you are determined to take control and not let circumstances control you and turn you into someone you do NOT want to be!