Monday, November 7, 2011

Nervous, Excited, Scared, and Hungry as hell

Well, that sums up how I am feeling. It is 2 am and I can't sleep. I slept for a few hours, but visions of biscuits and gravy danced in my head...so I got up.

I am having second thoughts...is this normal??? I mean, what if I am totally being selfish and never wake up from this and leave The Boy and The Big Boy without a mother. The love me fat or not. Th Rockstar could find another groupie (although not as hot and boobalicious as me ;) but my boys could never replace me.

I know...I am just being silly and everything will be fine.

We leave the house in 2 hours. I hope my surgeon had a great weekend. I sent him an email on Friday and told him to send his wife flowers that day so I knew he would have a good weekend ;) Hopefully he took my advice. I told him a happy wife = a happy life, but ya know, some men never learn that. I shall ask him this morning if he sent them to her. Hell, if I had known his address I would have just sent them myself and signed his name to them.

Damn, I wish I had a Mt. Dew right about now.

Oh well, time to put my big girl panties on and do this.

11 comments:

Dwindling Dame said...

It's normal. Second guessing is normal.

Hell, I already have mine and I still second guess it haha.

Things will go great, and before you know it, you'll be waking up (and I tell you, I was scared sh*tless of being put under, but it's so refreshing once you wake up), and everything will be fine.

Then you'll hit some of the uncomfortableness, but it all fades away. I would do it again in a heartbeat.

Thinking of you.

Nora said...

I had that, OMG, WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING moment more than once the day of surgery. You will be fine though. Looking roward to reading your first post-surgery post.

Kristin50 said...

LOL that picture just made me laugh!

You will be fine, it is normal to have anxiety after all this is major surgery!

Cannot wait to hear how you did!

Ronnie said...

Holy crap, those are some big girl panties! I bet you're already in surgery by now - so get to feeling better soon! And take pictures! :D

vickyd said...

It is so normal to feel that way! I'm sure everything will go well...make sure to check in when you are feeling up to it so we know how you're doing...

Andrea said...

LOL @ that picture! You will do great! Hope the surgery went well and you're feeling better!

Brenda said...

You wouldn't be normal if you didn't have those feelings! And those are some large panties! Take lots of pictures.......you will thank yourself later!

MOMoJJ said...

Yes! The 2nd thoughts are totally normal! In fact, you might have quite a bit of them while in the recovery stage! Lord knows, I did! But, in no time, I was healed and have started losing and it was all totally worth it! Just be sure to walk as soon as you can, small sips - no straws, and Gas-X is your friend!! Hope all went well and can't wait to read your next post with how things went!! Hugs!!

strawbrry75 said...

I pray surgery went well.

Kelli said...

Hoping all went well and I look forward to hearing how you are doing..

Beth said...

I'm sure your surgery went well and you are on your road to recovery! Anxiously awaiting your first post-band post!