Sunday, March 31, 2013

Weekend Recap and time to end the pity party

I hope all of y'all had a fabulous Easter! We didn't do anything at all. This is the first time since my boys have been alive that they didn't get a basket. It made me a little sad, but I just didn't think about getting the baskets together before surgery.


I went back to the PS on Friday. He did not feel comfortable taking out the left drain because it was still draining over 30 cc's in a 24 hour period...it was actually double that. He removed my belly button stitches and told me to come back Monday to have the left drain removed.


At first I was going to go in and work a half day and the go to my appointment. After today, I just went ahead and called in for the whole day. For one thing, I don't feel comfortable about going to work with a drain coming out me. Especially not when I work with kids who want to hug you, bump into you, and may even see the drain bulb and freak out. Also, the area around the drain has been leaking so much today. I had to change clothes 3 times because it had gone through all of the bandages, as well as my clothes.


I am sick of this drain. I want it out. Actually, I am so over this whole process. I knew before going into this that it involved a long recovery process. I didn't realize that I would be so emotional about it. My feelings are getting hurt over the smallest things. It's crazy. And none of my pants fit over this binder. Am I going to have to go to work in sweats??? I don't think my boss would like that very much.


I thought these words would never pass my lips but....I will be glad when my appetite returns. I have not wanted to eat anything at all. Nothing sounds good to me. I have only been eating less that 500 calories a day, and I wouldn't even be near that if it weren't for my chocolate milk.


Ok, pity party is over. Tomorrow I am going to do my hair and make up. I am going to find something other than sweats that I can wear. When you look better, you feel better...that's my motto.

Have a great week!

15 comments:

Chris P said...

Sorry today was a tough one. Hopefully you will heal quickly. It will take time but you will get there and be so glad you endured! Feel better.

Ask Me About My Band, My Lap-Band said...

I know this has been really tough, but you will be really happy you did this in the long run and pick those of us who will be doing it up when it comes time!!! Feel better!!!!!

Cheri said...

Oh I'm so sorry hon. I'm sure the combination of bad sleep, bad nutrition, and feeling a wreck are all taking a total toll on your emotions. I know in a short time you are going to feel SO MUCH BETTER and this will just be a memory/story to tell, but right now it sucks. I was sick all nine months when I was pregnant with my daughter, and I remember that feeling of not even being able to imagine wanting to eat again. I hope doing your hair and makeup perks you up some. I think it was a good choice to not go to work with the drain. ((((hugs))))

Vanessa said...

Oh Boooo. I'm sorry you are so frustrated. Hang in there- its worth it! You are so right - when you look better you feel better!

Run, Chelle, Run! said...

I am hoping that today will be the day and you'll get your drain out! I think it will make a world of difference in your mental state too. Crossing my fingers!

jennxaz said...

I agree stay home with the drain ball and get yourself something pretty to bust up the confidence. you will be back at it before you know..hugs sweetie pie!

Anna said...

Hugs, twinkie! Feel better soon!

Kay S said...

Sorry this has been such a sucky recovery. But you're right, putting on some lipstick will turn things around. Looking fabulous always makes us feel better.

Tina @ The Bandit Girl said...

So sorry! You have been through a serious surgery. Don't be too hard on yourself or quick to go back to work. Hoping things get better fast!!

Rachel said...

Hope you get feeling better!

♥ Drazil ♥ said...

The emotional recovery from my TT was much harder and longer than my physical recovery. You're going to get through. Try to think 3 or 4 more weeks out and how happy you'll be then. Right now it's about letting yourself heal, ok?

Laura Belle said...

Oh hon. You'll get through this!

I wish I could just give you a big ol' hug!

Robyn's Nest said...

It will be worth it in the end! Hang in there, Sweetie.

Connie O said...

I hope you got the drain out today because it sounds like that is the first step to feeling much better! Sounds like you could use a few more days off work, too ... but if you can't take them, I just hope things go okay tomorrow.

vickyd said...

Leaking drains suck the big one! Mine has been leaking a lot lately...I can't wait to get it out but unfortunately I don't think it will be anytime soon because it's still draining at least 50 ml a day...even 3 weeks later!!!